One Year Later,and the Battle Continues


There is a beautiful transparency to honest disciples who never wear a false face and do not pretend to be anything but who they are. -Brennan Manning

This morning I decided to skip the Work Out of the Day because I found myself dealing with my insecurities. I woke up at 5:00 a.m., but I was not able to leave my house. My mind started to say;“Look Miguel, you are slow, and not strong enough yet, if you do a partner WOD you are going to slow down your team, and you may not be able to finish, so do not go, there are other days in the week”. As always I shared my weakness through facebook, and I had a lot of responses from my friends.

In today’s world, community is not only found in face to face moments, but it could happen in social media as well, specially if we are willing to stop, read, and listen what others are saying.

I believe I met Jim Truesdell through Facebook because we both work out at Iron Tribe Fitness. I do not remember if he added me first, or I requested his friendship, but Jim and I did not just became Facebook friends, but one time we left that platform to start talking about life, and God while having coffee together; a stronger friendship was born. Now we work out in different gyms, but we still see for each other, and we take time to stop and listen. So this morning when I posted my  negative feelings about today’s WOD, this is what he commented: “If performance is the measure of a good partner, then yes you and I are not the best choices. If encouragement and inspiration are the measures of a good partner, I’d chose you!”  

Then the wonderful Donna Coughlin Huggins said: “Time to branch out at your new place and make those friends. Be a good encourager and don’t worry about the rest. Your getting in shape not training for the Olympics. Keep it fun” 

We have a great opportunity to create, and welcome community in today’s world, there is no excuse for us to not do it, and if we need some kind of encouragement, word of advice, even some accountability the only thing we need to do is to be open and vulnerable to each other.

Being strong does not mean always showing what I can do, and accomplish, being strong means to acknowledge sometimes what I cannot do, if I am week, may be I do not know what to do, or I may be afraid. It is to be able to recognize my dark side, so I can learn to enjoy the light. A well known spiritual philosopher once said: My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness…And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become” (2 Corinthians 12:10)

Then my good friend Caroline May, well known as Cmay, posted this picture as a response:

fear

 

and then it came the comment of my new Coach Blake at Crossfit RPM: “That’s the beauty of a team…..working together. I put people together a lot of the times that have similar skill levels. The 6am class has individuals of all levels so you will be fine. Put your trust in me buddy. I will take care of you”

Let me share something to you this afternoon, when I started this Transformation Journey, I thought that I was going to do it alone, but in the midst of pain, brokenness, discouragement, and very low moments, I found community, and that community transformed me. I know my coach is not saying this just because I pay a membership, because I have paid memberships in other gyms, and I have never had someone encouraging me this way, besides Iron tribe, of course. My former coach Josh Bateman is a person I respect a lot, he put up with my monsters so much, he had a lot of patience, but I am pretty sure he lost it with me many times. Coach Antonio, well he is another story, he taught me not only about myself, from him I received one of the most significant teachings in my journey. A wrote a whole chapter in my book about the lessons I learned through him. (You will have to buy the book to know more about it)

There is power in community. We should learn the way we encourage each other while exercising, and do the same in our work places, or even churches.  When we work out together, we will show our true self, even if we are the last ones to finish, there are always going to be others standing besides us to encourage us to finish.

There are so many people depress, lonely, struggling in life out there; we need to stop and listen, and start letting them know we care, even if we do not know them, even if they are from another race, or speak another language. Even if they do not have papers to work in the country. We are still humans, and we need to hear these words constantly: “You can do it! Come on! Push harder! I will finish with you! You are not alone!, or as simple as “Put your trust in me, and I will take care of you”. We want God, or whom ever you believe, to do this, and to be honest it seems like a very passive way to encourage others because it takes away our own responsibility; but for a human fellow to say it requires more than simple words, requires commitment, and most of all it requires to live what we preach.

So this afternoon, I will face my own demons, weaknesses, and insecurities once again…..

Note: What is a demon? Everything that tries to convince me that I cannot do it, usually is the battle with myself.

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