“God not only loves me as I am, but also knows me as I am. Because of this I don’t need to apply spiritual cosmetics to make myself presentable to Him. I can accept ownership of my poverty and powerlessness and neediness.” (Brennan Manning)
My heart is being broken in little pieces, it is being shattered. But believe me, it is a great feeling because I know something is happening while I am trying to heal the wound of the past. In on of the chapters of the book I have written I talked about this:
“In The Way of Simplicity there are many journeys, the first of which is shatterness. This is one of the hardest to get through because we must come to a moment in our lives where everything is torn apart, broken, shattered in many small pieces and there is nothing we can do about it.
The Journey of Shatterness requires us to recognize the darkness in ourselves as we face all our ideologies, concepts, beliefs, and standards of life and we realize that there is a possibility we could be wrong. It is the realization of our raw humanity. Like a beautiful clay vessel that has been smashed, there is no way to put it back together. That is exactly where this journey lead us: to a place of dust. As Carl Jung said, “Knowledge rests not upon truth alone, but upon error also.”
“Keep pushing” was the message my coach gave me Tuesday night after sharing with him how painful the latest work outs have been. In the morning during our devotional time in my work, Sara my co-worker shared a beautiful story:
“A man was sleeping one night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might.
So, this the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun-up to sundown, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all his might! Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.
Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the man’s weary mind. (He will do it every time!)
“You have been pushing against that rock for a long time and it hasn’t moved.” Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. The adversary said, “Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort, and that will be good enough.”
That’s what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to the Lord. Lord,” he said, “I have labored long and hard in Your Service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimetre. What is wrong? Why am I failing?”
The Lord responded compassionately, “My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself.
Your arms are strong and muscled, your back shiny and brown; your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. True, you haven’t moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom.
That you have done. Now I, my friend, will move the rock.”
At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what God wants, when actually what God wants is just simple obedience and faith in Him.
By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that* it is still God Who moves the mountains.
When everything seems to go wrong……………………….Just P.U.S.H.
When the job gets you down………………….Just P.U.S.H.
When people don’t do as you think they should…………Just P.U.S.H.
When your money is “gone” and the bills are due…………..Just P.U.S.H.
When people just don’t understand you……………Just P.U.S.H.
P = Pray
U = Until
S = Something
H = Happens
Pray Until Something Happens”
For the first time in almost 3 years I felt the presence of someone, or something touching my heart and spirit, when two people without being connected to each other told me the same thing.
I have always considered myself as a spiritual person, so I know I am very sensible to that. Then out of the blew I received a messaged from another coach I have not even met who has been reading my posts on the journey at Iron Tribe:
“I have read all of your posts but haven’t commented yet until now. I hope they are treating you right Downtown… if not come see us! Just kidding. wanted to say, I have been where you are and I’m still kind of there. Through many life circumstances, I have found myself bitter and angry at God, even though in the back of my mind, I know I can do nothing apart from Him. Life is just plain hard… it sucks most of the time because the adversary robs us of joy through hard circumstances, through broken relationships with people, and I think his biggest weapon, is getting into our minds and making us our own worst enemies. It doesn’t matter how friendly people are to me, if I don’t love myself at the end of the day, even the truth of knowing God loves and accepts me doesn’t sink in.
I can’t wait to meet you someday!! You are right. You are here for a purpose, and you have taught and inspired me by your consistency and dedication to getting stronger and healthier. Go get em, my friend”
There is power in community, and if someone tell me that we can not create community in Facebook, it means that you are not stopping to listen what others are saying. This stranger (the unknown coach) decided to stop from her very busy life to listen, and then she took a step of faith, a step of willingness, and wrote me a note. Do not take for granted what we do in places like Facebook, tumblr, wordpress, or even while working out. It is in the simples moments of our life that we can also be ministered.