If I find myself in the middle of the desert with no water, no way to go, nor a compass, not a map. If I have walked hundreds of miles, and my strength is almost gone. I have sweat all my inner water. My sight is almost gone. Do you think I may wonder about how did I ended up there? Do you think I will start thinking what did I do wrong? Do you think I will wonder if I am in the will of God?……well I am finding myself in this situation, just in the middle of nowhere, with no clear direction. With not even one single option but to stay in this dry, harsh, and difficult place. We(Paula and I) are not even going to be able to go to Paula’s brother wedding this coming Saturday. (not because we don’t want, or because we don’t have enough money, just because we can not leave this country) It is totally out of our control.
Well exactly the way we feel with the wedding, I feel in this desert. I am dying of thirst and hunger. am I in the will of God? I really think so. I don’t know with what purpose, but I am truly sure that all this is about empty myself so He can be my whole and I am so far of that!!So I still be thirsty, hungry and lost until I can find my wholeness in Him. Jesus went to the desert, Paul waited almost 8 years to do ministry, so I pray: God empty my life, Christ empty my life, Holy Spirit empty my life.