Yesterday Paula and I went to our class in the Department of Children Services, we are taking a class for parents whom would like to become foster or adopting parents. A lady approached to me and asked me, “So how is the baby?” I looked at hear trying to understand what she was trying to ask and who she was. She came closer and told me , “Don’t you remembered me I was your case worker at DHS, so how is your little baby”. Let me tell you that I almost cry in front of her but I hold my pain and told her the whole story. This morning while doing my journal I came across this scripture out of 1 Corinthians 10:13 “No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.” My friends, I wish I could believe this right now and praise God for giving me “Alex” and then be taken him away…but sometimes this test and trails seem way beyond what I can handle. Then I realized that I am still on pain, that still hurts, that I still miss him. Sunday we prayed for the son of a really good friend who was going back to Irak. Of course everybody was crying, specially his dear wife. While praying, his dad prayed, “Lord, I never knew the pain you felt when you send your Son to earth to die, until now that I am sending my son to war without knowing if He will be back”. I feel like this word from 1 Corinthians is like applying an invisible cream to not be burn out from the sun. It just requires faith. Sometimes my faith is more like an unbelief……..so I pray Daddy help my unbelief!