Knowing Him

I don’t want to sound “cheese”, but to be real I have to keep reminded myself why in the world I am doing serving Christ? Today while reading my life journal (daily devotional) I read this: “I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering, and go all of the way with him to death itself”(words from Paul to the Philippians. Ch 3, Vrs 10-11. The Message). I have found a personal intimacy with Christ through my daily living, not exactly through Sunday services. For the first time in 17 years I have been trying to know Him, I feel totally relax about my relationship with Him, because is just between each other. It is not anymore about knowing him through the “organized church”, it is not the Christ somebody else taught me; it is the Christ I have always wanted to know. The Christ of the Cross I used to see every Friday night when Father Christian Jean spoke about him with so intensity that I wanted to know him more. The Christ of the Eucharistic, the Christ who invites me to his table to seat and eat with him. Through Him and the power of His resurrection I have known my Abba. The true merciful and graceful Abba who has accepted me the way I am with my weakness and flawless, and who still believes in me. Someone I can run and extend my arms and shout: daddy!! daddy!!……..you know I am looking forward for that moment when I get home and I can embrace my Heavenly Father. …..and with all these words I can say that I have given up everything else to have my life fulfilled….and that’s why serving Him is worth every single thing…..YES, He is worth every single moment!!!

What is Christ for you?..……….not church, not your denomination, not the small group, not Sunday services, not your Christian friends, not the worship band, not even all the involvement you have at your local church, congregation or fellowship…nop!! Just Christ.

Posted by Miguel Carpizo in his state of brokenness
Escrito por Miguel Carpizo en su estado de quebrantamiento

Time of Sabbath

Almost tree weeks and my face is still paralyzed . This time has been a time of true Sabbath and has given me plenty of time to think, pray, think again, and pray again. Paula started to work for the first time after 8 years serving in the ministry together as missionaries. It is her first USA job and she was very excited. I am excited also because we have gone through so much difficult time together plus all the tension of ministry. you know!! two people frustrated over ministry was not good at all!! So I am so happy she went back to work for her own sake and mental health…..by the way we have decided to go head with an adoption agency to help us adopt our future children. Connection Fellowship is going to major changes, major faith steps and major decisions. I have always say that we are a living organism and because we live, we are in constant change. By the way all the moth of July I won’t be teaching at Connection, waiting for my mouth to come back to normal.

Posted by Miguel Carpizo in his state of brokenness
Escrito por Miguel Carpizo en su estado de quebrantamiento

A Question….Una pregunta

IS IT WORTH IT?

¿VALE LA PENA?

Posted by Miguel Carpizo in his state of brokenness
Escrito por Miguel Carpizo en su estado de quebrantamiento

Don’t loose Hope

I have been diagnosed with Ramsay Hunt Syndrome and half of my face still after 11 days is paralyzed. The pain is most of the time gone if I take the pain killers they gave me. I started to develop vertigo and that is something you don’t want to experience because I feel like I just went through a couple of rides in the local fair and the world around me moves in all directions. Because of my eye is always open I have to used a patched to protect it, but then I can not drive and do much with it. Paula has been a great and sweet nurse, she is just so precious as a person and I am so glad she is is my wife and best friend. This time seating at my house and listening to so much classical music has given me a lot of moments to thank God about life and everything He has done for us. I am thankful that I got ill because that has helped me to make a stop in my life and just appreciate it. Every minute, every hour, every moment. 11 days ago I was loosing hope and believe me I was loosing my own dreams. Now I have felt that in the midst of these moments the Lord, my Abba, has told me, “Miguel I haven’t forgot your dream, please don’t you”. This week I saw The Never Ending Story and this scene is one of my favorites, the sound is not very good but listen to what the wolf has to say to Atreyu about loosing hope. “Do you think is easy to loose our hope and dreams?

Posted by Miguel Carpizo in his state of brokenness
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Struck by…..

In bed with my right side of my face completely paralyzed because a virus attacked my facial nerves. What else God has for me? what do you think? I cannot read, I cannot keep my eye close, I talk funny, on excessive pain killers and drugs and on observation for two weeks. The American pastor of Connection has been pulled out from us, we have become a Fellowship, we are planning our second service in English without pastors (one is sick, one will be gone)….Lord!!! please tell me what is going on? by the way Paula is looking for a job she needs a break for ministry please pray she can find the right one for her.

Posted by Miguel Carpizo in his state of brokenness
Escrito por Miguel Carpizo en su estado de quebrantamiento